WAIT. Are those duck[ish] lips you’re making? Seriously? UM are your eyeballs closed in this photo? You’re like REAL sweaty. You can’t even see your bicep muscle in this photo? You’re doing that weird 🍑 pose kinda / your whole body is also swollen, thanks Mother Nature!
Y’all I GET IT. I used to look myself in the mirror and rip myself apart in a very negative way. Make hella judgments about myself and even worse, make them mean things about myself - as if they were a part of my identity.
Like those thoughts made me who I was; as if I might be defined by others & how they might view me as .... based of xyz; and even worse what might I think of myself after that happened.
I attached them to my level of likeability, LOVEABILITY, self-worth. And was constantly worried about what others might think of my appearance, personality, d e c i s i o n s, etc.
And I have to tell you guys that that is NOT living. It’s stifling. It’s suffocating. It’s trying to live your life in accordance to everyone else & quite frankly - it sucks. bigtime.
Now I look in the mirror. still “see” the pouty lips, sweat, bloated arms & belly, pose I swore I’d never do, and I think LOLLLLL because I was so fucking concerned about what everyone else might think *pardon my french* and now I’m like yes ANDDDDD so what?!
Next week I won’t be bloated. My biceps are POPPIN whether you can see them in this photo or not. I’m damn proud of my sweat and work ethic, am so pumped that I have the confidence to even take this kind of photo in a mirror, feel good about it, AND then post it to IG with zero attachment to whether or not I get likes or positive or negative comments - because none of that really matters at the end of the day.
What matters is I’m GROWING & I’m HAPPY & I’m FREE and I’m so proud of myself for that. 😭♥️ & what matters even more - is that you out there get to know that you can have & feel all of that too - in whatever way that looks like for you. Keep on going fam 🤟🏼 your best self awaits.